||ßEAUTYQUEEN||

&; so she plays the fool, over and over again.

2006-10-17T15:24:19Z

i dont know what you want from me
it makes no sense at all
when everything you see
is everything they've done to me
my misconceptions & insecurities
are the make up of my soul
and you think you do
but do you know?
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

you make
falling in love easy
and thats what scares me.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

but to me, every part of you is b e a u t i f u l.
~*~

for so long i've been running
for so long i thought i knew it all
but having met you?
changed everything.
~*~*~*~

i dont know what love is
but i might be willing to try again
if it means you'll be the one
to show me.
~*~

(just the sound of your voice (moves) me)
~*~
i can see it in your eyes...
the way you try to be better (for me).
~*~
and i wouldn't have KNOWN what love was
if it weren't for you.
it's too bad i learned what a broken heart was too.
~*~

the wind blows gently
sweeping her hair across her face
and you swear you've seen an angel
in this dark & silent place.

don't cry to me.. if you (loved me) you would be here with me...

2006-08-30T19:00:04Z

So the last time I wrote it was May 27th.
Obviously that's like a sin.
Anyway's heres some stuff I've written over the months & some new stuff as well.

~*~
"Tu"

Broken deep inside
but you always knew.
Had nothing to hide
but still you saw it through.

My words were painful
my heart was a mess..
But you looked inside and saw
only the best.

Everytime I tried to write you out
you kept coming back for more.
And even when my heart was in doubt
you left open the door.
You saw me for what I could be
and not what the hurt could do.
Oh, the story of my life
ti'l I found you.

I tried to shut you out
oh, the things that I said
You saw past the hurt
and became loves true friend

Everytime I tried to walk away
you were right behind me.
The sunlight in my days
that were so dark.
You knew the real me
without me saying a single word
The story of my life is so different now
baby, because I've got you.

You'll never believe what you mean to me
And how I look up to you
My story was full of bitter words
until that day... baby, until I found you.

~*~

[x] No matter how (hard) I tried to make you leave..
I was so glad (you) never did. [x]

~*~

the only thing i ever did wrong
was letting you hurt me the way you did.

~*~

new poems.

(rumors)

you didn't trust the words on my lips
and i wonder if you ever really did.
for you told me things so untrue
things about me, that i didn't really do.
i tried to give the benefit of a doubt
i tried to make it go away
but the truth that my friend didnt believe me
never rang more true that day.
i pride myself on never speaking
of the things i do not know.
they werent my secrets for keeping
but i never told a soul.
it wasn't going to change me
or affect the way i lived.
these rumors that i "started"
only ruined what i had.
they showed me who you were
and how untrusting you could be.
they told me that our friendship
was based on falseitys.
although the words never left my lips
it didn't matter to you.
in the end what was left of it all
were the rumors i never used.
:(
~*~

"when its over"

in my mind it's finished
even though there's so much unsaid.
but theres no use in wasting time
on a fair weathered friend.
when the going gets tough
you run in the other direction.
facing me was always hard for you
though i never understood.
we were friends
you could've told me anything
i never would've judge you.
instead you told the whole damn world
things that only i shouldve known.
and i found out from someone who loved me
enough to tell me so.
so this is all so unsettling
the way we let it fall.
but i dont have it in me
don't have much left at all
i can't pick up the pieces
of something you didnt want.
when its over
i guess thats all there is.
im sorry you thought i didnt care
but what kind of friend
does this?

~*~

i would've fought for this
but i've nothing left now.

and i hope all these changes happen with (you).

2006-05-28T01:34:06Z

Yeah so I haven't done this in awhile. I'm feeling a little inspired lately.. so we'll see what happens in the span of a half hour eh? ;)

Same Sad Story 5.27.06
Can't stop the tears this time
pouring like the rain.
It's all you have left
to hold onto.

There's nothing worse
than never knowing what's to come.
And when the waves crash around you
you've got nowhere to run.

Oh and it's a cruel, cruel world...
when you can't stop the hurt inside...

It's another one of those moments
You wish you would've known by now
Thought that it'd be a whole lot different
Ti'l you realize you're goin' round and round
But you get back up...again
Cause it's the same sad story
Over and over my friend.

Put on your best face
you could fool the world.
And that's all you've got
going for you.

Oh and it's a cruel, cruel world...
when you can't stop the hurt inside...

It's another one of those moments
You wish you would've known by now
Thought that it'd be a whole lot different
Ti'l you realize you're goin' round and round
But you get back up...again
Cause it's the same sad story
Over and over my friend.

Time to write another story...
pages full of the good times you've had
Cause I know one day, you'll find it
And this world won't seem so bad...
-------------------------------------

Only One 5.27.06
I know I've let you down
Cause you saw the pain inside
Broken like a flower
I wish I would've tried

I know there's another way out
I promise I'm gunna get there..
I know, I gotta turn my life around
And I promise you I will..

Faith.
That's where its gotta start.
Love.
Gotta find it in my heart.
Forgive.
From the things that I have done
Hope.
In the only One.

To say I've made mistakes
is like saying I'm alive
I really hurt you so
I wish I would've tried

I know it's gotta change right now
I promise I'm gunna do it.
I know I gotta turn my life around
I promise you I will...

Faith.
That's where its gotta start.
Love.
Gotta find it in my heart.
Forgive.
From the things that I have done
Hope.
In the only One.

I know I'm gunna get there
Cause He promised life for me
I know I'll be okay
He promised that I would be.

MORE LATER.

in honor of 21 years.

2006-05-24T05:43:49Z

Here is an OLD poem I wrote ...back in 03!But I thought it was cute/fitting.

::Spread my Wings:: // 11.16.03 //

Behind the curls, the whispers, and smiles
grew up a beautiful girl.
Although she wasn’t perfect,
she still lit up your world.

Shoes to big, for her tiny feet
Yet she danced in them anyway.
Shoes she’s now grown into
That have since helped guide her way.

Through tears and pain
Smiles and joy…
This little girl has lived.
But now you look and now you see
This little girl’s not so young.

She’s made some bad decisions
Yet she’s always come back home.
She’s tried so hard to grow up,
To show you she’s not so young.

There comes a point in life
When a little girl comes of age…
A time in life when she hurts easily
A time in life, a time of change.

She wants to see the world herself
To see it through her eyes.
I know its hard to let her go
But you’ve got to let her try.

She will always keep you, in her heart
Despite everything…
But she needs you to understand
She’s going to spread her wings.

will we always lie to ourselves?

2006-05-16T04:19:04Z

And if it were that easy
don't you think I'd do it?

'the one with the regret & tears'

2006-05-02T05:47:29Z

-you're not suppose to come around
cause i already gave you up.-

i dont know your reasons
or if you have any at all
but it'd be a whole lot better
if you didnt try to call.

just dont.
cause i already know your heart.

you're only going to make me look like a fool ~~again~~

"I don't wanna see you anymore
I'm just not that strong.
I love it when you're here
But I'm better when you're gone.
I'm certain that I've given
And oh how you can take
There's no use in you tryin'
there is nothing left for you to take.
Baby please release me
let my heart rest... in pieces."-Rascal Flatts

but i don't wanna be just a one hit wonder...i wanna be in love with you.

2006-04-20T04:18:38Z

Ignoring the obvious reasons why I shouldn't..
but you make it all seem so incredible.
~*~

I don't want to be just some girl to you
I could really fall in love, you know.
~*~

Do you even know
how much I take to heart
And would it bother you if you did?
~*~

So I'll dance with you
and smile&laugh
But I'm really kind of hoping
we'll be more than that.
~*~

It scares me
how much affect you have.

she's an ugly girl....

2006-04-17T07:05:43Z

To say it's been a long time, is an understatement. I've written a few things here and there the past month, but have yet to type them up. So here it is.
No disclaimers, no intro's, just the cold hard evidence. (i always wanted to say that, hehe.)

1.5.06
------&;quotes.

x. it's not easy to tell you goodbye
x. because you were everything
x. but it was all a day too late

((i never lied to you. but i cant breathe. im drowning in the misery, of the things you can't forgive.))

*if this is how forever is
then maybe forever's a mistake
cause i cant live this way
and there is nothing left to take*

when you can define perfect
i'll start trying.
cause i'm sick of pretending, for the sake of your love.

pick up the pieces of shattered glass
and think of my heart when you do.

// i'm afraid
i just thought you'd like to know
because you're the reason
i'm like this //

+bet you never thought i'd break through
+guess you didn't plan on me seeing the real YOU
+and now that i have, you're not worth it.
+ and you probably never were.

goodbyebaby
i get the 'last' word.
so take your lies back..
that's all i've ever heard.

i'mgone
guess who hate's themselves now?

miles o u t stretched before me
and all i see is y o u.

¤was 'i love you' really that hard?
¤because when you spoke those words, you broke my h e a r t.

i believed you
that was my first mistake.

3.1.06
------&;lyrics.

{ONMYOWN.}

I've done it all before,
at least a few times more.
Picked myself up,
the best I knew how.
Shared in dreams
Cried in fear
Loved the most
and gave my heart...
to you...
oh, you.

C: Maybe it's too late
Maybe it's time
But I'll never know
Cause I'm leaving
Won't look back again
you can't change my mind
like you have a thousand times before
Only one thing left to do
and I'm doing it without you.

Didn't think I'd even say this
Never thought that I'd move on
But I surprised you baby
and packed my bags
Cause my hearts been broke
My tears went dry
Gave up hope
And said goodbye...
to you
oh, you

C: Maybe it's too late
Maybe it's time
But I'll never know
Cause I'm leaving
Won't look back again
you can't change my mind
like you have a thousand times before
Only one thing left to do
and I'm doing it without you.

Moving on
Fading fast
Sorry it just didn't last
Wave goodbye, click the phone
Doing this... on my own.

{THEWAYISEEIT.}

Another night thoughts of you
just won't let me sleep.
And underneath those city lights
Do you have thoughts of me?

It's been a long road
and we've come so far
But I lie awake
and it really breaks my heart...

C:Cause I know you don't think of me
like I think of you
And in my life
through these years
I've come to realize
baby you, oh you
have never seen the world
the way I see it tonight.

I see it so clearly
Hand in hand in love
But it's just me, baby
thinking all these thoughts

repeat chorus.

we've been down that road
And I lost it all
But I can't let go
of the way it was.

3.12.06
-------&;quotes.

}{ i've held the hands of another
and kissed their warm sweet lips
but it never really mattered
cause my heart belongs to you. }{

and i'm not afraid to admit anymore...
that i might always been in love with you.

4.9.06
------&;lyrics.

{NEVERMEANTTOSEE.}

I've always held back
-never let go
Didn't know how to tell you
-never let it show

But when I saw you leaving
I lost all my control
And before I knew, I reached out
Said 'Baby, please don't go'

C: I never wanted you to see
how much you really meant to me

I told myself one day I'd be fine
That one day you wouldn't run across my mind

I stood there not knowing what to do
Cause you weren't suppose to see the tears for you.

As the tears ran down my face
I looked up at you
And I wanted so much to run away
Your eyes they changed
from gray to blue
It wasn't suppose to be this way.

repeat Chorus.

I wiped my eyes
Took a few steps back
And we both knew
You were never meant to see that.

4.06
------&;quotes.

()As the smoke leaves her lips
She turns to look at you
And wonder's if it could be worth it
The way it was to you.()

~¤~
Crimson nails.
Perfect lips.
She'll get you, where she wants you.

Broken smile.
Hidden past.
What you don't know, could hurt you.

Borrowed soul.
Captive heart.
She's only doing what she know's how.

Perfect image.
Decieving eyes.
It's all a matter of fate now.
~¤~

What you see?
Are all of the pieces put together.
What you don't see?
Is the fact that they were broken because of you.

something old - and something new.

2006-01-02T05:16:25Z

So it's been quite awhile. But I've got some ~~old stuff~~ (apparently i did post my old stuff, so ignore), and some new.
Amazing how a girl who spends time writing, has very few words for her own introduction to them. ;*

[but you don't know the pain ive felt from you
because you're okay hiding behind your lies
because you're okay breaking me to pieces
because deep down inside, you're your own worst enemy
and im the only thing that keeps you from dying to yourself]

// shattered glass reveals so much
reflections of the broken girl inside.
can you see her? do you care? //

((i wont fall down forever||i'll learn from my mistakes
thanks to you i learned my lesson||so heres to another day))

1/1/2006.

*under this facade i hide
because you've alread seen too much of me*

smile, pretty girl
it could always be worse
but those words hold no comfort
smile, pretty girl
you've much to gain from this
but those words seem hollow
smile, pretty girl
you've got yourself to blame
so i smile for the worl
to hide my pain.

[x] please forgive me
for the thoughts you never knew
and all the anger in my heart
that i felt for you.
we all make mistakes
but i never meant to hurt you.[x]

+i surrendered to my bitterness
when the devil reached for my soul
i felt overcome with hate
and tried to bargain off my lies
but i broke through my own disguise
and turned the page
i saw the light
and i was whole again+

i will not think you weak
when the tears fall
for i've been there
i've felt it all

and like a new dawn
may the new year bring
lessons we'll learn from
tear's we'll cry
hopes that come to pass
and dreams come true.
And may we always find our comfort
in YOU

¤promises are wishful thinking
so guard your heart [little] one¤

do you ever wonder what it'd be like
if the words "i love you" never got in the way?

-"The quickest way to ruin a relationship, is to start one."-HowToDeal
-"You're never really over your first love."-HowToDeal

|for what do you consider to be worse...|
|a broken heart, but for a moment|
|or a soul lost for eternity?|
|decide wisely|

and last, but not least

.you don't know.
You touched my heart
in places i didn't know where there
and when you held my hand
you held it all
Didn't you feel it?
Don't you feel it?

You captured my soul
that was reserved for another day
and when you said i love you
i watched all my walls break
Couldn't you see it?
Can't you see it?

You broke my heart
that I never should've given away
and when I watched you leave
my tears fell like rain
But you won't know it...
No, you will never know.

abrokendream @ 2005-12-27T11:55:00

2005-12-27T16:55:57Z

I have a few things to update in here! I just haven't had the time to type them out. But look for it soon.

x's & o's!

beauty!

2005-11-23T06:35:21Z

admire the beauty. one layout down, one to go. <3

&; Pretty Baby // Don't you leave me

2005-11-03T05:50:40Z

Wow, been a long time eh? ;*

(october 13th // 2005 )

[i just want to go home // but i cant find my way these days]

(forget.me.not.)

&; but you dont know the pain ive felt from you
&; because you're okay hiding behind your lies
&; because you're okay breaking me to pieces
&; because deep down inside, you're your own worst enemy
&; and im the only thing that keeps you
&; from dying to yourself.

// shattered glass reveals so much
// reflections of the broken girl inside
// can you see her? // do you care?

[x] i wont fall forever :: i'll learn from my mistakes
[x] thanks to you i learned my lesson :: so here's to another day

*. fate must've took a wrong turn
*. i must've believed a little too much
*. i pretended you were the one
*. so i could feel loved
*. but all i ever learned from you was heartache
*. and how to walk away

(+) swallowed up in lies
(-) believing my life was something different
(+) i never saw it coming
(-) and now the world has crumbled at my feet

XXX
i never thought i could love so much
i didn't know i had so much passion
XXX
until the day you broke my heart
it was then i knew i loved
it was then i learned to hate
XXX
with a PASSION
you can't mistake.

maybe i'll always love you...
guess you'll never know.

abrokendream @ 2005-07-16T20:20:00

2005-07-17T00:20:58Z

New layout. After a million years. It was hard to part with my Julia Stiles layout, though. ;*

Lisa & Becky's are next.

<3

I blame myself.

2005-06-08T15:15:48Z

*~¤ My dreams f a d e away, everytime you bring me d o w n.

( I'm sorry you ever believed in me. )

"Farewell my love, I was wrong, I guess."

goodbyetoyou.

And I [miss] you. Yeah, I missed you.

-----------> Get out -----------> Right now!

2005-05-12T02:43:24Z

(It's the end of YOU & ME)

New stuff. Nuf' said.

[5.11.05.]

[oh, the games you play.]

---> forget it.
i'm done trying. <---

()What is your worth?
Not as much as I supposed.
And here I wasted all these years,
on someone I barely know, now. ()

¤Go ahead and hide behind the words you use
those fancy little lines.
i dont, and wont, believe everythings alright
cause i can see right through the things you try to HIDE.¤

completedisaster
nothing defines you more.

Prove it.
Because I'm sick & TIRED of hearing about it.
Get up, and DO SOMETHING.

x.
i'm feeling used.
i'm feeling weak.
you went ahead
and punished ME.
x.

i wish i didn't still hold on
oh, how i hate the things you do
to me.

if it takes a miracle
then i pray it happens soon
because i'll do anything
to make myself get _over_ you.

[can we sense the fact that i'm irritated, YET?]

You're a fool.
But that only makes me one, for needing you like I do.

Save Me // From the nothing I've become

2005-05-01T04:12:07Z

Wow, I am ever so proud. I actually wrote, yet again, this soon! :-P Okay... I forget when I posted the last one, but it wasn't that "long" ago.

Anyways, be cool my babies and

*x.songs by_yourstruly

[Forever.Yours]

i can't face another morning,
oh, without YOU near.
i won't last another hour,
i need to feel YOU here.

in all my broken-ness
admist all my pain.
there's only one answer
the NAME above all NAMES.

reach for me,
help me through.
rescue me, like the thousand times before.
hold onto me,
never let me go.
guide this sinful heart of mine, so i'm foreverYOURS

i wouldn't ever make it,
if i tried without YOU.
i lose sight so easily,
it's YOU who guides me through.

in all my broken-ness
admist all my pain.
there's only one answer
the NAME above all NAMES.

reach for me,
help me through.
rescue me, like the thousand times before.
hold onto me,
never let me go.
guide this sinful heart of mine, so i'm foreverYOURS
x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x.x

[breakdown]

Bitterness seeps through my veins,
I feel it settling in.
It's taking over my weak heart,
And I know I just won't win.

Cause without YOU
I'm weak.
So please LORD
hear me.

[Breakdown, all my foolish pride.
Cause I can't see YOU in all of this.
I want to let it all go,
rid me of this emptyness.
I may not understand YOU,
or why YOU work this way.
But guard this frail heart of mine,
so I can see YOUR face.]

I don't feel YOU'RE grace anymore,
and it hurts that I don't care.
All those lies are telling me,
that YOU'RE never there.

Cause without YOU
I'm weak.
So please LORD
hear me.

(bridge)

OPEN MY EYES
BREAKDOWN MY WALLS
SAVE ME, OH LORD
BEFORE I FALL.

// Hope you have the time of your life...

2005-04-19T21:01:21Z

Yeah, obviously I'm updating. Which, maybe is a good thing.

"Because I'd be stupid enough to wait "

[PrettyLittleGirl]

Oh look at the pretty girl,
see how she smiles.
She seems so happy,
in her perfect little world.

Little do they know,
little do they see...
just how much
they don't know about me...

They'll never see the tears I cry,
each night before I sleep.
They'll never see the fears I hide,
beneath this smile I keep.
They'll never know how my heart breaks,
everytime that I see you.
This pretty little girl..
Oh, if they only knew.

She swears to you she's fine,
and you really think she is.
She'll dish out every line,
so you can't see within.

They'll never know
They'll never see
Because I won't let them
know the real me.

[Chorus]

It's easier to pretend
and live this messy lie.
Maybe one day this heart will mend
and I will say goodbye.

But all they know
All they see
Is the pretty little girl
I pretend to be.

*¤*¤*¤*¤*¤*

random_yourstruly

x. promises are over-rated
x. or so the broken hearted say.

+Why did you hurt me so?
-You'd have been better off telling the truth.

FORGIVEMEBUTTHERESNOTHINGLEFTFORYOUNOW.

</3 Baby you realized way to late...
</3 that i was so in love with you.

[x] Driving out here all alone
This time I'm giving up
cause I can't take another fight
And I won't stand another lie
i've been way to good to you
and it's time to say goodbye [x]

she_loved you
did_you know?
she_cries for you
do_you know?

*its that one place
**that makes me think of you
*its your sad face
**that kept me so un-glued
*its the promises
**that we never did keep
*its the moments
**that haunt me when i sleep

( goodbye's the saddest word, i'll ever hear )

i dont mind, spending everyday, out on your corner, in the pouring rain.

|I keep believing in EVERYTHING that only lets me down.|

____was it really that hard to love me? </3

[ you suck. // plain & simple. ]

*<>* I don't know what hurts more...
you saying you love me, but can't be with me.
Or me loving you, when you don't deserve it. *<>*

--------> i'm the object of your affection // when you can't get nothing else <--------------

((Stop pretending everythings OKAY. Cause I'll be the first to prove you WRONG.))

[.] you dont belong here. you never will [.]

( its the end of you and me. )

[Crazy/Beautiful]

2005-03-28T05:02:04Z

I have the urge to write, but I don't know if I can. I've been sitting here for 20 minutes, at least. sigh.

</3>i cried myself to sleep again
and the morning came to soon

look at her, she's done it again
why does she ruin her life so?
the mascara runs down her cheeks
and the scars are still there for show.

i cried myself to sleep again
and your phonecall never came

oh her heart breaks, she runs so far
her past is her enemy, oh it lingers there
she'll change her face, change her hair
what's it matter... no one cares

i cried myself to sleep again
and you were never there.

[x] ~ [x]

you're so beautiful, you know
oh, it's so plain to see.
another line, another time
another lie, to believe.

xo.*.xo.*.xo.*.xo

okay, so yeah, it's like an STLD marathon, and i lost all my will to write. excuse me while i grab a tissue, for the eyes, and the nose.

:-*

2005-02-02T05:56:14Z

First of all, thanks Becky for upating me the last time. Got to love computers. (I better shush before I jinx it.)

[GET BACK.GET BACK. YOU DON'T KNOW ME LIKE THAT.]

~*Quotes*~ By .x. yours truly .x.

[x] Don't put in my head
All the things you wish I was. [x]

_Step Off
_Live Your Life
_Mine's Already Occupied

Honestly
Did I ever do anything right?
Measure me
according to what, you?

.Please.
.Get Over Yourself.
.You're Your Own WORST Nightmare.

(*)
Little Self Righteous
(*)
Got To Have It All
(*)
Everyones A Failure
(*)
Behind Your Wall
(*)

Don't make me wish that it would all just go away.

[+] Don't LOOK at me. If you're looking for PERFECTION.[+] (Stacie Orrico)

//I don't get it
//Why's it always gotta be me?
//Why am I the failure?
//Why am I to blame?
//I'm just trying to live my life
//I don't play your games.

Okay, I have a super-major-headache. That's all she wrote.

:.x.: oUtRaGeOuS:.x.:

doing this for Bek! since we're soul sisters! ;)

2005-01-20T05:20:19Z

::running in to make entrance::
::slips and falls on face::
::stands up out of breath::

H-hello! It's Becky, I'm updating this for Bek because she asked me to because her computer is experience some technical difficulties with LJ. Those are never any fun.

So here are her newest writings 'cause she's amazing as a person and at writing and singing. So enjoy or you're in big trouble. Because, psst, come here... ALL of her writings are AMAZING! And don't forget that! Oh and forget, I'm her number one fan.... :D

rA nd O-m ~ RebeKah *

I don't need you
to feel |[complete]|
If I depend on myself
I'm where I need to be

How the hell did
things go ~~wrong~~
when all I did
was love you back?

::you and i
::would've been better
~~if it wasn't the 'you or i'~~

</3>All I wanted was
to make you happy
And that was the one
thing I couldn't do </3>so busy trying
to find someone else to ~~blame~~
[that you didn't see how]
forgiving I would've been

all i wanted was you
but you ~~turned and walked~~
| a w a y |

sorry i'm not perfect ::
:: but guess what
~~neither~~ are you ::

Dont tell me you loved me.
Cause I'm here all alone.

you have NO idea what it
feels like to lose the one
thing you wanted most. So
you can leave now
mr. self-sufficient

*your tears broke my heart*
-your lies broke us apart-
Which one of us, played the fool?

~ * You told me I was all you'd need...
was that what you told ~~her~~, too?]

.x.Not a lot makes sense to me
and I just added YOU to that list.o.

~~stop telling~~ me you tried
i've heard enough of your lies

~~just let me go. we're only making this worse.~~

I miss you. and thats what hurts.

You leaving ~~wasn't~~ what killed me...
it was the part where you left, without saying
[ g o o d b y e ]

I'M gunna live MY life

2005-01-08T22:57:21Z

Here's some stuff for the new year. I know, you were all so hoping. Hah.

:New Song Alert:

"Can't Stop"_By yours truly

.You can't stop these tears
 that fall for you
.You can't fix this heart
 that broke in two

.You can't explain to me
why it has to be this way
.You can't comfort me
with the words you say

[Bridge]
I know it's not your fault
And I still love you so
But can you teach my breaking heart
how to just _let_go_

[Chorus]
Can't Stop
loving you
Won't stop
hoping that
Someday we'll be together, forever
So for now baby, it's all I can do
Cause I can't stop
... loving you

.I can't stop pretending
that it'll work out in the end
.I can't help but wish
that my broken heart would mend

.I can't believe it's over
I wish it wasn't so
.I can't help but ask God
to help me let you go

[Bridge]
[Chorus to end]

[Another new song coming soon, titled "The Other Line"]

wo®d§ by _yours truly

[x] Shutup
i don't have to listen to ANOTHER word
Shutup
just leave, there isn't a [lie] i haven't heard [x]

Why does it have to be this way?
 ____you know it's all your fault.

*. goodbye - to all your lies
*. goodbye - to the tears i cried
*. goodbye - to the lines you threw
*. goodbye - to me & you
[*.So goodbye - you were never worth this]

That's all for now my lovely friends. Happy New Year, and such.

</3 Bek </3

You know... I could be just like you.

2004-12-29T06:27:07Z

[Hello]
I'm the lie, living for you, so YOU can hide.

Random Thoughts // Brought to you by, x :-: Yours Truly :-: x

All Her .t.e.a.r.s.
Now my .f.e.a.r.s.
[You're behind this all]
So She .c.r.i.e.d.
And I .t.r.i.e.d.
[But we're the ones who fall.]

*.x Did you think you had me fooled?
*.x When you played your little game?
*.x I'm way to smart for you
*.x And you're the one to blame.

Your [selfish] words
Your [thoughtless] lies
Now we have to [suffer]
She [and] I.

How does it feel?
To know you ruined
EVERYTHING
you can never get back.

:-:
You messed with the wrong GIRL
:-:

It must get pretty tiring,
Hiding behind that mask.

Don't tell me that you're sorry...
Those words don't mean a thing.

I won't pay for this.
I won't even cry.
Because you're gunna be the lonely one...
Left with all your EMPTY lies.

[s]orry, but you lost me.
I guess I wasn't worth a [t]ry

_Today you broke a heart
_Of someone who loved you so
_And today I had to lie to her
_Because you're so damn LOW.

.: Nevermind the idea's
.: Forget the plans
.: I must've mistaken you
.: For a different kind of man.

That's all for now. I'm getting way to frusterated.

Guess Who's Back...

2004-12-21T06:48:37Z

You can't deny you missed me.

Can You Keep UP?

x-. cAn'T tOuCh tHiS.-x

rand0m- by y0urs tr*u*ly

Shattered
Pieces of me, on the floor
Fought
back, you can't hurt me anymore.

[x] Move -x- You're not worthy
[x] Leave -x- I don't need you

*. I don't need you
*. to feel complete

_Do everyone a favor
__Get
___Over
____ Your
_____ Self

S.+*E.+*X.+*Y.

:.OuTrAgEoUs.:

This is the last time.
I swear I will forget you.
I owe you nothing.

}{I gave you my h e a r t
Said 'Handle With Care'
But your selfish hands
just left it there.}{

Bite Me//I'm Beautiful

---> ShE's gOt It GoInG oN. <---

x0x I guarentee, I'll be your favorite mistake. x0x

&spread your wings
&pretty little butterfly

|dAnGeR0Us .x. m0re t0 c0me|

<3 Happy Birthday Nai <3

2004-11-26T02:44:07Z

New stuff... :o) [Happy birthday to my beautiful & lovely sister. *muah*]

[qUotEs.] - yours truly

.i've got passion, spirit, and heart
what did i need you for?.

*.X your smile is the last thing i wanna remember, before i walk away.X*

----> i'm so afraid
----> i'm creating
----> someone i wish
----> you'd be

[you don't know me. you only think you do.]

[x] let me make it easy
[x] i'll be the one
[x] who walks away

</3>break my heart. just get it over with. </3>i'm not worth it +.+

//it's okay
//i'll be fine
//blame it all on me

YEAH REDSOX!!!!!! Sorry. Here we go...

2004-10-28T04:05:16Z

[[Redsox//2004. WAY to GO.]]

:9:17:04:

<>|Another Reason|<>

It's written on my face
although I try to hide it.
Seems you've made your escape
and you know you can't deny it.
Everyone feel's sorry
they say I'll make it through...
But I can't stand their lies
and I'm so mad at you.

[Cause you put me in this
situation
Yeah you went and made this
complicated]

CH:
You gave me another reason
to hate love like I do.
You made the wrong decision
and proved my fears were true.
Can't believe I wasted my time,
and ever fell for you.

I avoid the stares from across the room
that bleed with I told you so's.
Thanks for proving me wrong
and leaving me a l o n e.
I can't stand this anymore
I swear to you I'm done
and if I hear another it'll be alright
I swear to you, I'll run.

[Cause you went
and screwed this up
So this time
Im giving up]

Chorus.

---->> QuOtEs. ---->> yOuRs TrUlY.

|/| Hazy days
Lingering tears
Starless nights
Silent fears |/|

i am so afraid i will wait
~~F O R E V E R~~
but you'll never come.

>> You're more then a memory
You're presence still lingers.

bElIeVe In YoUrSeLf
because no one else will.

"Don't be afraid of death
be afraid of the un-lived life."-Tuck Everlasting

¤My eyes are a window to my soul....
and I know, you know.¤

_Let me be
_your beautiful
_letdown

*Of all the things
*You promised me
*Goodbye was the hardest one

Don't tell me who to be
until you know who
you are.

oNe mOrE wOrD
cOuLd MaKe AlL tHe
DiFfErEnCe
But do we risk this?

[10.25]
You _Move_ me
Un_nerve Me
Break down my walls
You _Haunt_ Me
You _Love_ Me
Break my every fall.

Your life story
is all in your e y e s

I love you for who you are...
Why do people change when they know?
I fell in love with the original,
so don't change.

~~Nothing could keep me from loving you.~~

Memories *consume* my sanity.
I'm *crazy* over you.

(()) Days go by
as do the months...
But still your memory
remains (())

There is so much
I want to say.
But one look at you.
and the words f a l l away.

*¤* I miss you as much as a starless night.*¤*

Until next time,guys. <3

♥ Redsox ♥